THE IMPORTANCE OF THE HOMELAND
My childhood home was a place of trauma. Only trauma memories remained.
A week ago I was prompted to return to this first homeland in Southern California.
I had not been back in 40 years.
There is nothing positive I associate with Newhall, CA. I didn’t know what to expect.
I was fortunate to find a hotel in a relevant part of town.
Walking distance to my childhood home and more.
I was drawn to walking my childhood streets and spent hours doing so – These turned out to be filled with memories. Not all positive or negative, but memories and relevant. I remembered SO MUCH MORE than I previously had. And then the unexpected happened –
IT WARMED MY HEART & SOUL
You see, as a healer, processing trauma, I had only remembered what happened in the home – And there was nothing good there. But I had forgotten everything else.
And there was so much more.
There were adventures, the fence I painted when I was 13 for $5 per hour. The childhood friend’s homes. The BEAUTIFUL elementary school I went to, the parks, my mother’s horse ranch and more.
Even my favorite job, serving slurpies and flipping burgers at Six Flags, Magic Mountain.
The trip was so UPLIFTING. This was completely unexpected.
I checked in to my inner voice – Was this to shift the trauma memories? The answer I got back was, “no.” It ws NOT about changing the trauma, it was about providing balance. That BOTH get a place.
HOMELANDS
Recently I purchased a home in Moldova – My GGF & GGM’s birth country (Russia at the time), because it felt like HOME in my Soul. I am integrating the re-connection.
Now I have given a place in my heart to my childhood home. And this feels really lovely in my Soul. Balance…
And I continue to learn the importance of homeland on so many levels.
Thoughts, comments, opinions?
Jack
